I'd like to introduce to you Ms Z. Woods. This gorgeous beauty was chosen as Baldie of the Month b/c even though she has grown her hair back out, through her experience as a Baldie she learned so much about herself that she may not have learned if she never went Bald. She realized that she was beautiful without needing others to confirm it and true meaning of letting go because after all....its JUST hair. Her story begins below.
For the majority of my life I never really gave much thought to my physical appearance, beauty and hair. Styling my hair consisted of a monthly relaxer, blow dry and flat iron which would end with my hair either a pony tail or just out with no pins or scrunchies. I did a "big chop" at the start of junior year of high school and left about a half an inch of curly hair dyed fire red on my head and by senior prom, I "rocked" my natural tight, shoulder length curls. For the next few years of college I continued to bounce between perms, big chops, weaves, braids, etc and in between all these hair changes I was NEVER satisfied!
While in college, a very good friend of mine would make random comments encouraging me to go bald every time I expressed annoyance with needing to find a new hairstyle but the suggestions were always brushed off because I always associated being bald with male and female masculinity. Then one morning, several years post graduation, while staring at my reflection trying to figure out if I should do a high pony puff or a low one (those were my only options while frustrated and lazy) I told myself "just shave it off. It's just hair and will grow back." Every day following that split second thought I convinced myself more and more as to why I should cut my hair off and started to feel a combination of nervousness and excitement while trying to find the best salon to help me take that leap. Before the cut I did share my desires with some friends and family and about 99% of the feedback was discouraging. No one wanted ME to cut MY hair! So, without telling all but one person, I set a date and shaved my head!
Seeing my reflection in the mirror for the first time without hair was quite liberating and the days and months following the chop ushered in a new focus in my life. From the foods I ate (avoiding things that caused breakouts and bloating), my sleep habits, the way I perfected my mascara and lipstick routine and even my earring selections, I began to take better care of and paid more attention to ME. Even the stares and compliments from men shifted from being called "sexy" to being called "beautiful" :)
I remained a bald beauty for 2 1/2 years and each time I went for my cut, I felt renewed and swore I would grow old bald but recently, that though has changed a bit. I began to miss my curls and have began desiring the various twists and faux locs that has resurfaced in the hair world and so I stopped cutting my hair. It has been a few months since my last hair cut (my barber keeps trying to get me back) and as of now I am satisfied with the rapid growth I have seen with my hair. There is, however, a bit of an (impatient) waiting game happening daily with anticipating the day I can get braids and I am slowly reminded of the numerous products needed in order to keep my curls moisturized and healthy but watching it grow from next to nothing ah la one step from Michael Jordan is quite amazing. Who knows: maybe one day I will cut it all off again or maybe I will never cut it again. Either way, my hair (or lack there of) has taught me so much about myself: finding my own voice when the voices of others attempt to shout louder, realizing that I am beautiful without needing others to confirm it for me to believe it and the true meaning of letting go because after all....its JUST hair.