My name is Jennifer. I am born & raised in Sweden. I am bald because I was diagnosed with alopecia at age 11, I am now 23. So I have been bald 12 years going on 13 years. I got my hair back once when I was 16 years old but it only lasted a summer or so until I started loosing it all again.
When I first lost my hair I was at a age where I never really thought about my appearance. I knew I had brown hair and brown eyes. But I was a pretty care free kid so what I looked like never really mattered to me.
I noticed a bald spot in the back of my neck and I have a hard time remembering everything detailed and the time frame is very unclear. When I visited the hospital I was told that I had alopecia and that there is no cure or answer to why this happened to me. She then told me that I might need a wig later on and when I do I had to come back for help and support for a wig. I don't remember feeling sad or upset at that moment. I just remember feeling mad about not understanding why this happened. One doesn't just loose their hair? I went from wanting to sue the shampoo company (at the age of 11) to settling with the specialists explanation that it was stress that caused this to happened.
After only a couple of months all my hair was gone. I was told by the hospital that when I become bald I needed a wig. So being unfamiliar with this situation my parents and I started looking for the best wigs in Stockholm, Sweden.
To my parents and everyone around me a seemed very ok with my situation and I was never really sad about my situation. Sometimes I cried and felt that it was unfair that this had happened. But I just carried on...
I never spoke to anyone because I didn't even understand myself that I was struggling with this.
It has been tough... I have been hiding behind wigs for 12 years. I have told people about it and it seemed like I had accepted it. But the truth is that nobody wants to wear a human hair wig everyday of the week pretending that everything is fine. Nobody wants to sleep with their wig on just because you are not comfortable on showing your partner what you look like bald. The thought on showing the world who I am and not being accepted has been scaring me so much.
I finally came to realize that I was sick of wearing a wig everyday because society told me that I need hair to be beautiful.
I know I was torturing myself wearing a wig summer time because I just wanted to be like everybody else. I know understand that my strength and power comes from me being different & unique. I am know embracing it!
I want to thank you for the strength of my beautiful bald sisters all around the world all that are amazing and beautiful bald. The beauty does not come from simple things like having long, curly, short, straight or no hair.
It comes from within. I'm very proud of myself for coming this far in my life with finding myself and finding inner peace.
One of my goals is to be here for people that are struggling with something that makes their journey to finding their peace harder or longer. I want to put the light on how our new culture & community around young people is destroying self esteems and making it harder for them to accept themselves for what they are and finding their peace.
Now I am so proud and happy to be myself and embracing the fact that I am bald & beautiful!